These Songs Are Used To Be Ours

Hi Fellas ! Long time no see.How's life ? mine going well :)

I have a lot of tasks these days,so i couldn't manage this blog as well.But here i am again,ready to share something about my life.This time i would like to share you some memories songs of me and my last ex-boyfie.

"I just wish you knew that you always be the best for me.Even tho' fate doesn't mean us to be together,i will never forget you and everythings we've been thru.Terus jadi yang terbaik ya,selamanya aku sayang sama kamu,uwi".

1.The Beatles-Here There Everywhere

This song was like our anthem.It's start when i told you that imma big fan of beatles.It wasn't surprise that you loved em' too.Then you singing a part of this song and i was like,"Yeah that's it ! that's one of my favorite beatles's songs".

"Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there".

2.Adera-Lebih Indah

You said that this song was really describe what you felt about me.

Our Favorite part :

"dan kau hadir merubah segalanyamenjadi lebih

indah
kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa
membuatku merasa sempurna
dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup
berdua denganmu selama lamanya
kaulah yang terbaik untukku".

3.New Found Glory-Too Good To Be

"You have my heart in your hands

You have my heart so don't, don't let it go

Check my pressure

Patch me up right, you're too good to be".

4.Relient K-Must Have Done Something Right

"And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best d

ay of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You're OK with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I must've done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must've done something right
I must've done something right".

5.Plus 44-Make You Smile

"I don't, don't want to take you home.
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone.
If I could, I'd only wanna' make you smile.
If you wanna' stay with me a while".

Secarik Curhatan ABG Labil xp

Dear bloggie,

long time no see huh ? miss me already ? hehe.Gu gak akan 'ngebala' seperti postingan gue sebelumnya.Walaupun tulisan gue sekarang ini masih masuk kedalam kategori 'ngebala' yang gak-begitu-penting banget.Tapi setidaknya ada maksud dibalik postingan gue kali ini,dibanding postingan sebelum-sebelumnya yang gak jelas apa yang ingin gue sampaikan.hehe.

Anyway melihat kondisi blog gue yang jarang dikunjungi,jadi gue akan blak-blakan disini karena dirasa ga akan ada orang yang sudi ngebacanya.Haha.Kalaupun ada ya bagus.Toh memang tujuan gue adalah biar orang tau apa yang sebenernya gue rasain.Tuh kan belum apa-apa udah labil ya.haha.

Orang mungkin banyak yang tau sifat gue tuh kaya gimana.Sebagai remaja yang lagi labil-labilnya,gue tumbuh menjadi cewek yang 'agak' tertutup dan pendiam.Ini berlaku dalam berbagai hal.Entah itu terhadap kenalan baru,orang yang ga begitu dekat,atau poin utamanya adalah cowok.Tapi jujur aja itu gak gue banget.Ganis yang asli adalah gue yang cerewet dan maunya curhat mulu.Gue suka bercanda walau seringkali garing.Tapi kondisi ini menghambat sosialisasi gue dengan sejumlah...eh ga sejumlah deh,SEMUA cowok.

Naaah dari sini ketebak kan gue mau ngomongin apa.Ga jauh-jauh dari cowok deh gue mah.

Setiap orang pasti punya love story yang berbeda.Gue sendiri pernah mengalami sama yang namanya 'jatuh cinta' ke beberapa cowok,walaupun gue jenis manusia yang susah untuk suka ke lawan jenis.Tapi gue cenderung memiliki jalan cerita yang hampir sama dengan beberapa orang itu.Can we just call it 'one sided love' ? yep ! sebagai cewek mana mau sih punya love story yang kaya gini.Tapi sebagai manusia gue sih percaya aja,kalau ini semua cuma untuk pengalaman aja biar kedepannya gue bisa belajar dari pengalaman masa gelap gulita gue.et daaah.

Semenjak disakitin baik secara sengaja atau tidak disengaja,baik verbal maupun non-verbal (TKI kalee),sudut pandang gue terhadap cowok jadi berubah.Gue jadi sedikit benci ke makhluk biadap bernama cowok (maap maap).Gue ngerasa yang bisa cowok lakuin hanya nyakitin perasaan cewek aja.Gue ngomong bukan ngasal dan tanpa alasan ya.Karena riset membuktikan kalau cewek adalah pihak yang seringkali dirugikan dalam hal 'asmara'.haha najis ga sih ?

Dari situ gue makin menjauh dari yang namanya cowok.Bisa dibuktikan dengan hanya segelintir teman cowok yang gue punya.Gue jadi agak menutup diri dan kesannya jaim ke cowo.Tiap,ehm...ada cowok yang ngedeketin (ehm !) pasti ga gue ladenin.Walaupun gue ga munafik kalau fisikly cowok itu lumayan,gue mau mau aja.Lumayanlaah buat dibawa ke kondangan.haha.

Sekarang justru gue jarang berkomunikasi dengan cowok.Sekalinya ada komunikasi pasti gue bingung mau ngomong apa dan harus bagaimana.Tapi ada satu cowok yang jadi pengecualian dari dulu sampai sekarang.Demi keamanan bangsa dan negara gue ga perlu nyebutin siapa dia.Yang jelas gue sama dia dulu cukup 'dekat' dan banyak banget hal yang udah gue alami sama dia.Mulai dari yang seneng-seneng,ampe sedih-sedih.Kita juga pernah musuhan.Tapi ga tau kenapa ujung-ujungnya gue selalu bisa nerima dia lagi,ga peduli sejahat apa dia dulu.Bukan nerima dalam arti gimana loh ya.Nerima disini dalam artian gue masih mau temenan sama dia,dan karena alasan-alasan tertentu gue ga jadi benci sama dia.

Sama dia gue biasanya selalu bisa ngomong lancar,sesuatu yang janggal ditemui kalau gue berhadapan sama cowok.Walaupun kadang dilandasi sama perasaan grogi dan salting (melihat siapa dia dulu),dia satu-satunya cowok yang bisa gue ajak ngomong.Okelah dia udah jadi punyanya orang lain sekarang.Tapi itu gak menutup kemungkinan gue tetap berkomunikasi sama dia,walaupun ga secara langsung.Dan gue juga tau batasan-batasannya ko.

Ketertutupan gue terhadap cowok selama ini ternyata berdampak buruk.Gue jadi ngerasa asing sama mereka.Awalnya gue ga peduli ngeliat temen-temen gue udah pada punya pacar dan sebagainya.Gue bahkan ga pernah merasa iri karena mereka ada merhatiin,ada yang sayang sama mereka,bla bla bla.Karena gue pikir gue udah cukup mendapatkan perhatian dan rasa sayang dari keluarga dan temen-temen gue.Dari situ gue sempat berpikir kalau tanpa cowokpun hidup gue normal-normal aja.Gue bisa seneng tanpa cowok.Dan kadang gue suka mempraktekan teori itu dengan jalan-jalan ke mall sendirian instead sama cowok,temen,atau siapa aja.

Tapi lama-lama gue menyadari juga kalau manusia memang ditakdirin untuk hidup berpasang-pasangan.Itu semua mengubah teori gue tentang bisa hidup tanpa cowok.Dan mengingat gimana seremnya kalau gue terus tertutup sama cowok dan jadi perawan tingting ampe nenek-nenek (amit amiiiiit),gue ga mau lagi punya pemikiran kaya begitu.

Sekarang justru gue kena batunya.Gue baru ngerasa kalau gue sangat perlu mereka.Perasaan seneng disayang keluarga,teman,dan cowok tuh berbeda.Dan mengingat gue udah kelamaan sendiri mulu,dan ga mau kalau ujung-ujungnya jadi geek yang penyendiri,gue mau sedikit-sedikit membuka 'hati' ke cowok.Dan nerima apapun konsekuensinya kalau gue memulai 'suatu hubungan' lagi dengan mereka.

Dan akhir-akhir ini ada perasaan baru yang jarang banget gue alami.Perasaan iri tiap ngeliat temen gue kalau lagi ama cowoknya.hehe.malu nih gue ngomong begini mulu >_<

Jadi inti dari semuanya apa dong ? intinya ya gue mau punya cowok !!! haha panjang-panjang curhat intinya mah gitu doang pokonya.

Kalau ada yang baca gue ucapkan terimakasih.Ga banyak loh orang yang mau dengerin curhatan gue yang random banget.

Pokonya mah peace,love,and gaul ajalah !

Indomie selerakuuuu xp

Have Fun Learning English !

Ok my english ability is not outstanding yet.My biggest wishes for now is to accelerate my english,somehow.Cause my profession dream is closely related to english language.I wanna work in International Relation,i want it and i must get it !
I've done some attempts to make my dream come true.But i know it's not enough,still too far away to reach the target that i want.Although people around me said that my english skill was good enough.but i don't think so.

Soo,I've decided to make a list.List what will i do to learn english more and more.

1.Recently I have followed LIA, and I will be more diligent so I can get the benefit too
2.My current favorite book is english dictionary ! yeay ! i read it everytime i can in everyday,so i can reproduce my vocabulary.and now i've finished until D.haha.
3.Alfalink is useful too.i always bring it anywhere i go
4.I also learned from the movies i watched.because basically i like foreign films
5.My hobby is listening western music,so it helpful too.I learn a lot from the lyrics.and it's fun !
6.I often use english language everyday.I apply what i've learned in real life.it can trained me to be accustomed in speaking English.
7.I'm learn online on several website that provide english-language procedures for properly
8.Sometimes i did spelling bee
9.Not only the language, I also learned attitudes and customs and also the western culture in various media
10.All in all I always try and apply the principles do not easily give up on myself

So what do ya' think ? I think you can also learn in the sam way as me.would it be very nice if we can speaks fluently with this world language.although i'm not a western,but i put on my self to love english.


Keepn' english and peace :)

Ghanis Lives Today

Hello blog :D
i promise you not to tell the sad story in this post,so wouldn't :)
well,actually my life is still the same like yesterday.But everythings getting better rite ? so do mine.
let see...
Everybody want to have a nice family,and i've got it (thanks GOD) i got a dream family.They're the best family in this world :) my parents are the best too.I can imagine how suck my life if they're not my parents.
Secondly,i have a great great bestfriends.well,maybe sometime they're being annoy (and i don't care),but i know in they deep down heart,they really love me,so do i.
I love my school and my class,so does the teacher (not all actually).
I have a amazing life :D hell yeah !!
but...there is always a stain on the surface,the only thing lacking is i don't have a special boyfriend who love me and taking care of me when my parents back to tembagapura,leave me alone here in bogor.aaah so sad :'( uupss i did it.i break my promise to not tell u about my sadness things.but i can't handle it,trust me,it's so natural.

Oh god,i never want to have a BF like this before.Since i regret to ignore that 'guy',my eyes like opened to find and fall in love with somebody else,trying to move on from you-know-who or we can call him the EX.It's like a voice whispering to me,to convince me of my feelings for this guy.
Ou bebh,what shall i do ? i'm lost.

P.S : I saw him today in basketball court.but i dunt have a brave to looked him,and i do not know is he staring at me or not.Oh apparently i have a answer,he didn't.haha.what a dream girl who believe he noticed me.huh !

Should I Tell Him First About My Feelin ?

Oke blog jgan bosan-bosan kalau akhir-akhir ini (even kedepannya) postingan gw hanya tentang mslh cingta cingtaan yang ga bermutu.hihi.
Karena gw rasa no one visit my blog,jadi aman-aman aja curhat dan buka aib besar-besaran disini.haha.
As u know lah gw lgi mnglami lagi fase dmna yg namanya fall in love with somebody happen and again,there's a butterfly in my stomach everytime i saw him and then open his facebook page.haha.
Tapi yang skrang kayanya impossible abis.Selain dia ga seangkatan dgn gw (hello ngaruh gitu ya ?) susah jga sih buat nyari conneternya.haha.even worse,maybe he don't feel the same way as i am (yah negthink duluan as always).
Tapi gtau knpa kali ini gw jadi lebih berani buat ngungkapin ke orang-orang ttg prasaan gw,dan ga mulu gw pendam far far away deep in my heart :p people change rite' ?

So i've been thinking all days.Maybe i should try this way : tell him first about what i feel over him,text him first or say 'oi' when he online in fb.
aaah tapikan maluuu.yayaya i know ini era global dan eman si sapi wanita udh lama ditegakan.Tapi ini bkn sekedar jaim atau mslah 'masa cw yg ngungkapin duluan ?' tpi mslh harga diri.hahaha.
Bisa aja gw sms dia skrg ttg prsaan gw.tgal bilang 'hey ada yg mau gw omongin...bla bla bla bla gw suka sama lu',it's easy kan ?
tapi knytaan ga smudah cingcongan gw ini boooo xp gw hrus mkirin rindak tindik slnjutnya.Which mean,klau dia jga pnya prsaan yg sma (dan gw tau prbndingannya 1 : 1.000.000.000.000 or even more) dan okelah gw ga mnta jdian dulu,untuk skdr dkt (lagi) sma dia aja gw udh girang abis.Dan kalau brlnjut ke thap yg more serious than i though it will be great.slametan 7 hari 7 malem gw.tumpengan sma bkin bubur merah bubur putih.haha.
Tapi gw jg hrus mkirin hal terburuknya.Dia ga suka gw atau justru nggep gw Bi*** (walo gw tau dia ga sjahat itu).Dan yg jdi mimpi buruk itu klo dia udh pnya gbetan atau lagi tahap pdkt ama cw lain atau malah udah punya cw,we can say 'someone special for him'.gmana nasib gw dong ?
yaaaa nangis aja deh gw.guling-gulingan dikasur semaleman (lebay).
Dan klo gw ktmu di skolah ? tengtereeeng,ingetin gw buat slalu bawa tong sampah key ? ;)

Yaaah jadinya gmana dong dong nih ? sumpah bnran gw udh 98 % gapunya prsaan apa-apa sma si ex.well,2%nya gmgkin gw umpetin,dan gw gmau beralibi gw udh lupa spenuhnya ttg dia,pdhl knytaannya sisa 2% itu adlh prsaan syg gw ke mntan.wew.c'mon everybody did it rite ? they never forget their ex,ever.And if i said 'he was nothin to me' it's a bullshit for sure.the fact is,he's my bestie now.that's makes him more than 'nothing' to me :)
Tapi toh gw udh smbuh dari trauma have some date with someone yg udh gw alami sblmnya (that's why i ignoring this guy when he still often to text me) dan udh ready buat skdr tau dan dket with someone.
Gw udah lbih matang dlm berpikir dan ngmbil suatu tndakan skrg.trmsuk dlm hal lovelife gw.ga asal dan smbrgan sukalah gw.gw tau prsaan gw yg kli ini tuh sma kya prsaan gw dlu ke si ex itu.even more bigger.

Pleaseeeee someone help me to find the solution.i can't do my day without thinking about him.and it's killing me :( huhuuu.

Wait a second,i have to cry :'(

.............................................................................

Ok it's need more than just a second.i must think about it again.i need many time to relaxing my self.'so i gotta go.i hope next time i post again,i hope i will bring you a happy story.
pray me always :)

Love ya'll :)
hugh and kisses.XOXO

Here's a Several Clue about the guy who i LOVE :D

Errrr,i don't know i have to tell ya'll about it or not.But i just imagine if HE open my blog and (maybe) read this post,he finally know what i feel about him.I've always been bragging about the guy who I like in my FB stats.Maybe he read it.but he could expect it to someone else, not him -,-
and i'm so confused.How do I tell him about what I mean is ? i can't text him first.I'm too shy to say.
So...I hope he visite my blog and read this :

-He's a person who accompanied me during the last takbiran night via FB chatt
-We often 'smsan' :p after that night.he asked my number with the reasons for wanting to accompany me because I'm lonely.hehe.
-He text me and i rep him.But sometime i often ignoring him.and i want u to call me stupid people !!
-He ask me to watch movie tgther but i refused,cause at that time,i still can't forget the EX.watch movie with another guy will just evoke memories of the past with him :(
-He's name began with the 1st alphabet.duh ! whos is he ????

Ok....yea i hope u know what i mean soon.Sorry i'm too 'Jaim' (like someone said before).i don't wanna text u first bcause i'm shy.i just want u to know that i like u .oh oke my face change color,red mode on now.

I gotta go.

Happy Story Telling a.k.a CURCONG

H e l l o man (and woman and girl and boy and everyone and whatever...).
Have a great day huh ? unfortunately i haven't :( 2 days already passed since that beautiful dream.strangely enough I did not get a beautiful day.ok let me tell u what really happened here.

2 days ago,i've got a sweetest dream ever.haha.i dream about him.not the one i always tell u about.I'm sure 99,8% i don't have any feeling for him anymore (thanks god).Apparently i never told u about this guy.
He's my senior (yum).We never get too close until a few months ago.He text me first,and as u know we started telling each other about anything,about our self and our story.But it is my biggest mistake : i ignoring him bcause i don't have any feelin over him at that time,so does him for sure.really...he's nice,but i just don't see him.
Day by day,we rarely texting again.and now we like do not know each other (that's too bad).
Until i got that dream a few days ago.i dream him.in my dream,he told me that he like me (of course i know it's impossible.hha.it just a dream huh ?) and asked me to be his GF (oh god.i shouldn't dream about that).Strangely i said 'YES' without thingking first.
And happilly ever after :D

Wake up !! now back to the real world.Inversely from my dream,he didn't like me,but i'm the one who like him !!!
i realize that i really really really love him.I don't kno' what to do if i meet him.i felt shy -__-
and i don't know what should i do.i'm confused.it's like karma happens to me :(
Should i start to text him again ? and tell what i really feel over him ? o my gosh ! I don't have the courage to say that ! too shy to say :(
Now,i just hope and pray he want to sent me a massage again.Text me first.and i promise i'll reply his massage from now on.
Because u know what ? ignoring him is the most stupid thing I've ever done.
Please please please GOD gimme a second chance.


Gotta Go ;)

About Being Alone

*****
I'm sure no one want be alone.No one wanna feel alone,lonely.
And that's the way i feel now.You know,sometime life is so hard (Have you ever heard that life is easy ? sure you didn't).Especially for me.
I life far far away from my mumy and dad and my sister,forced live with my gammy who didn't like me and always talked about me behind.
I feel alone at my own home.I almost didn't speak at all at home,believe that ?
There's no one understand me.They are Jerk !

School is my favorite place.Haha.Yeaa,i was lazy with the lessons at school,but doesn't mean i hate to go to school.
I've got many frinds here.They're very good to me.
Well,sometime i feel there are some people who just use me.But no matter,i can handle it.I'm smart enough to judge a person.
But..i don't know,there's a time in school when i feel lonely.I feel i was not part of them.
I'm still alone.

Then he came.Offers his love and heart to me with his sweet words (now i know it was all a lie).
He said he love me.Unexpected i love him too.For the first time since i don't live with my parents again,i feel colourful.There's not just black,white,or gray.
I'm happy of course,so Happy...
But it's not long.When i feel the world is beautiful,he's gone leave me alone (again) 'out of the blue'.
I'm crying all the time since he said he don't love me anymore (what an idiot !).
But i still have my friends,they cherred me up make me forgetting him steep by steep,slow but sure.

Until today,i feel free from the fckn loneliness.Not because someone replace him (he can't be replace with anybody),but because i feel everybody love me.I'm not alone,there's so many friends who always ready to cheer me.My mom and dad never stop to thinking about me and pray me everyday.My family always there for me.Even though i have'nt find someone who can fix my heartbreak.
But yeah,i'm still waiting for him.The one who can make my life more perfect than now.Whosever,whenever,however he is,i still waiting for him,to make my life colourful again.

P.S : Anyway about the boy who never replace with anybody,i just wanna say that i finally can forget him (yeeey).I thinks he's wicked.But i don't want to bore him.Let him enjoy his perfect life.but i still believe that there must be some 'karma' :)

Berhenti Berharap Buat Cowok Playboy !

Hai semua semua :D good day huh ?

Hanya ingin skedar update blog saja biar ga sepi (pdhl mau bnyak postingan atoga,ttep aja gda yg liat.sedihnyaaa) hehe...
Jadi begini,sehubungan dgan judulnya,psti pda nanya what's goin on ? (krik krik krik).
Baru aja saya (ceilah saya) ngedengerin curcongannya tmen di YM.hhh..
Jadi kata dia :

Semalem gw dipegatin nis :'( gada angin gada ujan.tau tau ngmg pegat aja.smpah ya gw ga nyangka bgt.gw kira dy udh brbah.trnyata enggk.trus buat apa pngrbanan gw slma ini ?

Hduh ini cw aga lebay ya.hhe.peace.Klo mnrut gw ya nin,co itu mau megatin cw ga nunggu hrus ada angin ato ujan dulu :p mau badai ato cerah (edan) klo udh mau putus mah putus aja.
Lgian sih udh dblgin juga ya.Itu co player,masiiih aja mau lu mah.klo gw itung pke jari tngan,gkan keitung lu udh jdian brp kali,jdi aja jari kaku ikutan smua.emg bnerkan ? yg megatin psti selalu dia (udh psti klo dlm kasus mreka) lu nya udh DIBUTAKAN.haha.
Setiap dia putus sama cwenya,blikannya ke elu nin (berasa de ja vu.eiitss).Ngarep aja lu terus sama co ! begoooooo.udh bego mau aja dibego-begoin XP
Klo lo skrg nanya ke gw msh prcaya atoga sma co,gw bkal jwab , ENGGAK.mau co itu playboy ato alim sekalipun.Dimana-mana,mau sebaik apapun co itu,bejadnya pasti adalaaah.g mungkin pure gitu.jgan ngarepin co kya gitu ! gkan ada !
Nah mkannya gw betah skrg single.ngpain double klo bkin kita BT mulu.ya kan ? cape hati.
Dan lu jga ngpain malu statusnya single ? haduuuh.emgnya gpake baju ? klo telanjang bru malu nin ! aneh deh.
Single jga bkan berarti lu sndrikan ? ada tmen-tmen lo yg siap 24 jam nghbur lo klo lo mau.
Lo jga bebas dkt sma siapapun tnpa ada yg nglarang.Dketin tuh bnyak co,bkn berarti lo jdi ikutan player (jgan yah),tgal lu seleksi aja klo udh dkt.hehehe.tpi gw ttp aja lg gmau smsan ato dkt sma siapapu.hdup gw skrg enak lbh bebas.Cuma buet gw sndiri,kluarga gw,sma shabat-shabat gw.UDAH THAT'S IT ! :p
Percaya ga sih skrg gw lbh bnyak ketawa dbnding yg dulu ? bnran deh.hdup tuh bkalan indah klo emg lo ngjalaninya iklas (hehe.lutfiah sungkar),gapake ngegerutu mulu.Lgian untk apa pnya co skrg,mndgan ntar aja klo udh gede.Bkin skit hati aja skrg mah...
Okelah lo blg buat bljar dan pengalaman.Tpi klo pngalaman mah ckup satu ato tiga kali aja.Berkali-kali kya lo mah bkn pngalaman namanya.Bljar aja dri orang-orang,emang ga bisa ?
Ga punya co gakan matii kan ? yaudahsih enjoy ur life aja.jgan bnyak ngeluh.syukurin yg ada.untung lo bnyak yg suka,cntik,jdinya co jga klo dsuguhin lo mah psti mau (hehe).nah diluar sana meng,bnyak yg nasibnya beda (bkan ga laku),tpi dijodohin ato smacamnya (apasiiih),kya tmen gw yg nun jauh disono.Jdi aja ga bebas milih co.ksian ya dia :(

Jadi intinya ?
ENJOY ! (haha.crta pabalatak pnjang-pnjang.intinya gituan doang) Cemanaaaaa :p

Dirty Little Secret

"I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you`ll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret,
Who has to know?"

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-Pertama kali pacaran kelas 5 (kalo gasalah itu juga ya) ditembaknya lewat TEMEN COWOK ITU.dan gue ga yakin itu namanya pacaran.soalnya kita cuma smsan,dan gitu-gitu doang.this is the main point you have to know : kita ga brani untk ngmg scra lgsung dan bilang putus-pun tdak.inilah yg bikin gw gayakin kalau kita jadian.yaaa seegknya gue bljar yg namanya 'CINGTA'-laaah.haha.aneh ya ?

-Bego banget masalah matematika dan itung-itungan :p even ! kalo lo nanya perkalian ke gw sekarang (!) gue ga yakin bsa jawab cpet.yang sama aja artinya : gue lemot dalam menghitung.haha.bego bgt !

-Ngerebonding rambut kira-kira 3 kali ! stelah itu baru tau dan sadar kalau smoothing lbh 'aman' dibanding 'bonding'.dan terahir kali smoothing wktu kelas 1 (sma),ga yakin kpan mau dilurusin lg (pdhal skrg udh mulai gajelas),dgn alasan rmbut gw udah gajelas lagi alias rusak meen !

-Pertama kali berani nonton adegan 'kissing' di film kelas 1 SMA.dan gue bangga karenanya.haha.mengingat tmen-tmen gw udh mulai pda 'nepsong' nonton adegan cumuy even bokep (niiiitt) diumur mereka yg masih kecil (SD).haha.sok suci ga sih gue ? :p

-Duluuuu.dulu bgt.long long time ago,there live a ugly black curly hair girl named 'ghanis'.haha.yeaah,gue dlu bisa dibandingkan dgn itik buruk rupa yang gadipandang para lelaki (haha) bhkan tetangga gw pun segan kayanya bergaul sama si item dari papua ini (ah lebay).

-Balas dendam,krna ga ada yg suka dan ngerasa tenggelam kalau ada disekeliling saudara-saudara gw yang 'cantek cantek dan kinclong' itu,dgn mncoba merawat diri sebisa gw.haha.maksa bgt gonta-ganti produk pemutih wajah (untungnya kulit gw ga sensitif).dengan hasil seperti skrg (yaa-gw gabisa blg 'cantek' sih.haha.tpi setidaknya ga seburuk dahu kala ityu).mulai ngerasain efeknya,dgn cowok-cowok genit yang ngdketin gw (baca : yang jauh melampaui tipe cowok saya).haha.PD bgt gue.engaaa..bcnda ko bcnda.ga ada cowok dan ga ada yg ngedeketin.ahirnya gw sadar mau sputih apapun gw,kalau ga ngluarin inner beauty,ga akan ada co yg mau sama gw.trbuktikan sampai saat ini ? haha.

-Total pernah pacaran 3x ! ok u can call me junior ! haha.dan mgkin yg bsa dianggap serius baru 1 ! oh ato mgkin ga ada yg serius,kalau diitung melalu pndangan setiap cwok yg gw pcarin,sprtinya ga ada yg mau ngjalanin hbungan serius dgn gw (gtau knp).kesian ya ? haha.

-Senang hidup jomblo !! (Yeaaaa !)

-Paling ga bisa ngelupain mantan gw yang ke-3 ! gila itu mah udh nyantol bgt.it's like 'trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew'-nah itulah yg gw rasain.

-Seems like i'm too much to beg the last ex.haha.i really love him :(

-Masih terus ngebuka FB mantan (yg sama,sprti yg udh gw sebutin 2 point diatas) setiap hari.dan suka ngerasa skit hati klo ngeliat relationship statusnya.haha.bodoh ya ?

-Ganis di sekolah dan dirumah itu beda bgt.Kalo disekolah mungkin gw yg paling tertindas atau paling bawah kastanya.haha.soalnya gw pling gbsa ngapa-ngapain (ngomong,mmbela diri,atau berani PD) gw lbh suka duduk di kelas drpda mejeng dpan kelas.dan klo drumah,gw bsa disebut penguasanya.haha.ga tau knp gue brubah evil bgt.mgkin balas dndam atas status gw disekolah ya.tpi sih emg dari dulu gw gini.seenaknya nyuru-nyuru orang.sentiment.dan orang rumah (keluarga gw)-pun biasanya bakalan do anything asalkan gw ga ngambek atau monyong.soalnya berabe klo gw udh marah marah.haha.tapi ada beberapa org yang gabisa gw taklukan.mama,papa,nenek kakek gw (untuk yg satu ini,ada saat dmna gue sdikit keras ke mrka karna sifat mrka sndiri yg nyebelin abis !).mengingat mama papa adlh org tua gw,ga mgkin gw bsa seenaknya sama mrka.tpi nmanya jga anak,kurang ajar sedikit pernalaaah (astajiim).tapi seiring brjalannya waktu,dan smkin dewasanya pemikiran gw,gw brusaha untk nhan emosi yg kelewat sensitif ini (walopun hasilnya lebih sering gagal),gw srg mmprktekannya sama mama papa,dan mncoba untk jdi anak yg lbh pnurut :D tiing *

-Material kalau lagi jalan sama mama papa.haha.

-Ga suka nerima keadaan kalau adik gw makin lama makin besar (apanya ? loh ? eeeh..) umurnya !? dan ditahap setengah dewasa setengah anak kecil setengah manusia (haha).gw maunya dia jdi anak kecil mulu (walopun harus diakui gw gprnah berskap sbgai kk wktu dia kecil,dgn pngalaman prnah ngejorokin dia di tngga apartemen.ya Allah maafin yaa).

-Pertama kali nonton bioskop di 21 dewi sartika (baca aja pasar anyar) yg skrg kabarnya udh digusur (gw kira pantas sih.krna terahir gw nonton dsana,ada kawat nusuk ke 'pantat' gw.bahaya kan ?) dan nonton Narnia : The lion,the witch,and the wardrobe.

-Mimpi untuk jadi deplomat atau ketua redaksi majalah-ga tau mau majalah apa.kalau fashion ? apa pntes seorg yg suka pkai daster klo tidur dan ga sadar fashion jadi redaktur fashion magz ? haha.majalah remaja ? saya gprnah remaja dan gangerti dunia remaja (gw slalu mnganggp gw ini anak kecil-kalo dirumah,dan anak balita-klo dsekolah.haha.ini bukti klo gw gsuka sma yg namanya menjadi dewasa).majalah bisnis ? ga niat untuk jadi pebisnis (tapi mimpi untuk punya suami buissnesman) woohoo ! majalah politik ? udh diterapin diotak gw sama mama kalau 'politik itu keras',dan gw benci orang politik yang tidak bersikap selayaknya poliTIKUS (sepert keparat-keparat korupsi itu deeh -___-).Tabloit ? ohh hell,never.like oprah ever said 'don't believe what tabloit tell'.Koran ? triplle NO NO NO ! gw anti sama koran.
Jdi gw memutuskan diplomat adalah proffesi pilihan utama gw.dgn bayangan gajih super kenceng dan keluar negeri (eh kalo msalah ini,berat juga sih ninggalin keluarga-wake up ! inikan andaikan aja nis).

-Ga berani berpakaian yg too short and open.makannya baju renang gw 'penyelam' gitu.ganyaman aja pamer paha kemana-mana.mending ya paha gw bagus.segede bagong gini,org jga ngeliatnya ngeri meen !

-Berpikir keras kalau ada waktu 'gimana caranya biar jadi rachel bilson ato mischa barton ?'.dan gue tau itu ga mungkin.because this is me ! skrg pikiran part time gw beralih jadi 'gimana caranya jadi leighton meester biar bisa duet brg cobra starship ?'.dan ini lebih ga mungkin.ya kan ? i know nothing impossible.tapi yang seperti ini udah djamin kadar tidak mungkinnya.

-Terobsesi dgn bhsa inggris.

-Maaf sejauh ini gw ga ngerokok.ga,ga bisa,ga mau,dan ga akan pernah mau.hellooo,keren itu ga dinilai dgn melihat dia ngerokok ato engga kan ? emg org yg ngerokok itu keren ? apa ngerokok beneran nikmat smpai ada pecandu ? bengek gitu sih keren.

-Proud of my dimples.haha.

-Lbh senang sndiri diatas kasur ditmanin novel-novel fiksi fantasy (misalnya HP series atau twilight saga) dibanding ke mall yg hnya skdar nongkrong ga jelas.

-Bukannya jaim ke cowok ya,tpi gw sndri ga tau gmna shrusnya brsikap ke yg nmanya cwok.krna gw sering kali menganggap mrka ga ada (mgkin itu yg bkin hanya segelintir cowok yg dkat sma gw).bkannya benci ato pnglaman masa lalu ya yg bkin gw aga sensi ke cowo.tapi dgn omongan bullshit mereka (i know i know.ga semua cowok kya gitu.tapi seenggknya bgtulah cowok-cowok yg dkt sma gw.kbnyakan tukang bhong).gw ska ga prcayaan sama mrka.dan gbisa ngebedain mana yg beneran baik mana yang cuma cover doang.

-Prnh deket sama bule orang canada (cieee) dimulai karna salah masuk room di YM,namanya Connor.and now ? hellooo connor,where r u ??? ga tau deh.lagian cuma skedar main-main (pdhal pernah wbcaman).

-Suka perpaduan antara G&G (Org yg dket sma gw,psti tau apa itu GG) dan 170209.NEVER DIE (klo mnrut gw).

-Sekian (jih garing yua ?).akikikik.pegeeelll abisnyaaaa.

BYE !

JUJUR ... ... ...

"Honestly.i miss someone called ayay long ago -___- nd no one know.i pretend to forget him all this time.i feel bad everytime i hide ths feeln.but now i don't wanna lie anymore.hha.tpi bisa apa gw ? nothing.just try not to think abt him.dstract m...y mind to mama papa tmen tmen tmen.i've got those who LOVE me :')"

Okay.that was my status in fb @ 22 october 09 in 07:00 pm.
maybe u want to ask me why do i dare to be honest in fb ? as we know,people will see and know everytime i change my stats.like,nothing secret in fb rite ? haha.
why do i dare to tell him i miss him (ok.he's not comment or like on my stats.but i know he read it) ? well...like i said before,i was hiding my 'Gerisickness' (ok i'm crazy !) all this time.i pretend to forget him,even hate him.i try to not talk about him in front my friend.but hey,can u people pretending you don't miss someone who you missing so ? do you ? i guess not.
no one can hide the feeling about missing someone who you LOVE.
it's hurt me,everytime i saw his relationshin status.it's killin me inside (edaan) everytime i saw him :(
OH.you dunno how suffer me everysecond i lie to people that i don't care about him.the truth is YOU STILL LOVE HIM SO MUCH,how can u don't care about this person anymore ?
i want to see his eyes close again.touch his hand.watch movie together :')
but yeahs,it just a dream.dreams that always hurt me.dreams that always make me cry in the night.
Remember all the momments with him.i'm travelling to my past.i miss someone who always text me everymorning.say "pagi ay.lagi apa ?".i miss the time when he still often to call me everynight.i miss the time when i meet him behind the lab bahasa,across my class.i want to repeat the momment when we celebrate my 16 birthday.

OMG what can i do now ? i can't do nothing.he was already has somebody else now.and i just can figure it out.
i know i look stupid.i mean,is he miss me too ? is he always think about me too ? is he feel the same like i do ? the answer maybe NO.haha.hey,if u have a girlfriend who pretty,smart,slim,and more more more than ur EX-girlfriend,will u think ur ex than ur GF ?

Hhhh.that's all my 'curcong'.haha.i feel better to write what's on my mind in this blog.i know,nobody visit my blog.haha.but i hope sometime,he read this entri.That's the way i tell him how much i miss him :) bcause...i'm not too brave to text him and say 'Ger i miss u so much'.
pleaseee.how if his gf read my massage ? i mean,she is my senior.she can do anything with me in school.haha.

Love,kisses,huggie-ghejje :D

P.S klo lo ngbuka blog ini dan kbtulan ngbca posted gw yg ini : maaf ya jdi terlalu jujur bgini.ga biasanya memang gw kya gini.tapi gatau kenapa.feeling gw ngrasa klo gw hrus lbh jujur.gw tau kita putys udh lama.lo jga udh lupa gw (gpapa).tapi yaa asal lo tau aja,ga gmpang buat gw ngluapin elu.mau segimana lu nyakitin gw jga gw TETEP SAYANG SAMA KAMU.maaf ya lancang bgt.gw yakin lu geleuh klo udh ngebaca ini.kesannya gw kya yg gtau diri ya.masiiih aja blg syang.tapi itu memang bner kok GER.haha.lo psti mikir 'knp ga sms aja klo gtu ?'.gw bukannya jaim ya.tapi ga pntes aja kyanya mulai sms dluan,dan tau-tau blg KANGEN atau MASIH SAYANG.hehe.lebay ya ger ? sorry deh yaa.gw gmau ngganggu lo lg....
ah udh ah.jdi cengeng gni gw ngmgnya.ilfil kan lu ? aaaa jujur ajalaaa :p
yaudh ah,kpnjangan postingan gw (mending lu baca ya.ngbuka blog gw aja gprnah mgkin.mkannya gw brani ngmong bgini.hehehe).intinya mah,mkasih ya buat semuanya.
AKU SAYANG SAMA KAMU BANGET BANGET :)
OKE ?

Curcong gajelas

Hulla bulla yullaaaa :D lama ga posting yuaa.
kmarin tuh sibuk di twitter dan FB.euumm cemana wanita karir jadi super sibuk.ihiiy :p
akyu kembali dengan postingan bahasa 94h0eLzZ.oke kuaaand ?
Postingan skrg yang gajelas ini cuma mau dipake buat curhat aja aah.cemana deh diary gue ilang.hduuh kampret ga ? itukan harta 'karung' gue.hidup dan mati saya (maaf saya lebay).
Nah jadinya daripada 'pabalatak' gajelas,cemana mule aja ini cucurhatan akyuuu.
Okee,curcong mode on -.- (males N93tZz).

Jadi ya,saya teh kepikiran mulu ahir-ahir ini sama si itu (logat sungda).si itu-tuh,taulaah.He was not be named plus his name isn't allowed to apear in my blog ! (esmosi).
Yaudah ya,daripada hasrat terpendam begitu,jadi penyakit,disimpen lama-lama jadi busruk,berceritalah saya dengan charimate si intan.

Gue : Cemana intan gue mimpiin si *neeeet* mulu
Intan : Jih ngapain sih lu masih mikirin co kaya begitu
Gue : Ih bukan mikirin tapi mimpiin.kan beda tan !
Intan : Kalo lu mimpiin terus pasti lu juga mikirin terus kan kan ?
Gue : (mikir dulu) eeng--iya juga sih ya.pokonya mah gue jdi suka bukain FBnya lagi (yg gprnah gue bka smnjak dia megatin gue).gue liatin noh albumnya.gue buka lagi kotak musrik gue (yg isinya dompet,surat,tiket nonton).kenapa ya ?
Intan : Ih nis..lu tuh kaya yg gada krjaan aja ih.nih ya skrg gue tanya,lu mikirin dia kya gtu ampe keinget lagi,ahirnya nangis lagi,buat apa coba ? dia apa iya inget sama elu ? apa dia mikirin elu ? engga kan ? lagian lu mah udah digituin berkali-kali juga masih aja ya ngarepin !
Gue : Gue ga ngarepin ! cuma mikirin !
Intan : Ujungnya juga lu pasti bakal ngarepin dia kaya waktu itu.ampe jadi doa wajib segala.
Gue : (dalem hati : ko tau sih tan ?) ENGGAK WOO (bohong).
Intan : Tau ah.katanya gamau ngomongin lagiii.katanya udah gasukaaa.udah benciii.
Gue : Ih atuh bukan salah gue dia nongol tiap gue mimpi.gue aja kali ya ga baca doa.knpa sih lu jutek amet tiap gue ngomongin si *ngiung ngiung ngiung* ? pan yg disakitin gue tan (edan bhasanya mah disakitin).
Intan : Ya abisnya gue aja yang ga ngerasaian keheul ngeliatnya.udah dkasih kprcayaan sama elu berapa kali.udah dimaafin berjuta kali (oke gue akuin charimate gue ini agag lebay.same as me.hehe),dikasih hati malah dibalas kencur (nah kan.pribahasanya salah lagi).Lu aja dudul masih mau maafin dia.padahal udah berulang-ulang dia kaya gitu.
Gue : Gatau nih tan.tapi kayanya ada part of him yg bikin gw prcaya klo in his deep down heart,dia itu orang bae (silahkan menilai lebih lebay saya atao si chairmate ?)
Intan : Ah lebay lu (oh lebih lebay gue berarti )
Gue : Bukannya lebay.ini mah semacam insting tan.edaaan.haha.pkonya gue yakin sometime dia bsa brubah be a good man than ever.
Intan : Terserahlaah.bagus kok masih percaya.tapi jangan nagerepin !
Gue : ENGGAAAAK !
Intan : Eum demi apa ?
Gue : Ga pake demi-demian
Intan : Gamau harus janji.berarti sebenrnya lu masih mau kan sama dia ? hayoo !
Gue : Mau mau kucing sih.hahaha.enggak ah.eh.tau deh.
Intan : Ghejje !
Gue : Iya iya enggak,hehe.piiiiss.

Nah.cukup sekian dan terimakasih curcong dari saya (jih garing !).
iiih atuhdaa.gue bingung mau ngomong apaan.ini juga postingan maksa abis.biar blog gw ga sepi.
pokonya gitulah.initinya ya gitu ! (apasiiiih).
the point is :

-Gue udah bisa maafin dia spenuhnya ;)
-Gue udah biasa aja sma dia.bdo amat dia mau jdian sma siapa jga.bkan urusan gw lg.giih jrug sonoh gonta ganti cw.gue udh ga skit hti lagi :)
-Gue yakin klo org kya gtu bsa brubah.gtau kpan.tapi sure,dy psti brbah.
-Gue cute bgt (hahahaha -___- zzzzz najis ah.PD bgt nih gw)

Udah ah.bnyak cingcong.jari gw keriting ngetiknya.
akyu pamit yuaaaa.
Hallohaaaa :D

Mau nurunin berat badan-D.I.E.T !

Dari dulu,gue paling anti kalau ngomongin soal berat badan.Sebenarnya gue ga pernah bermasalah sama berat badan.Gue gapernah kegendutan atau kekurusan (ceking) alias normal normal aja.Tapi sayangnya gue kurang PD sama diri sendiri.Ga bagus sih,kesannya kurang mensyukuri,tapi gue mau sampai di titik dimana gue ngerasa nyaman sama diri sendiri.

Sebelum bulan puasa kemarin,berat badan gue 43kg.Kata orang gue keliatan kurus kayak orang sakit.Anehnya gue ngerasa gemuk aja,dan berencana buat nurunin berat badan lagi di bulan puasa at least 40 (gila kan !).Sayangnya takdir berkata lain (edaaan),bukannya turun berat badan gue malah naik selama bulan puasa,dan sekarang jadi 47 ! oh man !
ini pasti gara-gara kebiasaan gue makan diatas jam 8,tidur malam,tidur siang terus (kaya kebo aja),jarang olah raga.Gimana mau ga gemuk gue !?

Akhirnya sekarang gue mutusin untuk back to program diet lagi kayak dulu.Mungkin diet gue ini gabisa dibilang diet sehat (bayangin aja,gue nyiksa diri dengan ga makan nasi 3 hari),tapi anehnya gue gapernah ngerasa dirugiin sama diet gasehat ala gue.cuma sekrang ini,jadwal makanan gue lebih berpola dan teratur.

Sarapan :
Tertarik sama program dietnya orang jepang Morning Banana Diet (MBD),bikin gue ikut-ikutan,hanya mengkonsumsi at least kalo ga satu yaaa dua pisang ambon dan air putih suhu sedang atau hangat.udah !

Siang :
Sebenarnya ga ada larangan untuk ga makan nasi.Tapi emang dasaranya gue bukan nasi addict,jadi akhir-akhir ini gue hanya makan dua sendok makan nasi,even jus one ! (garis bawahi).haha.nyiksa abis ya.lauknya ? gue udah mesen sama orang rumah buat masak sayur aja.Tapi mereka justru bikin makanan kesukaan gue mulu (dengdeng balado,cornet) aah bener-bener pada ga dukung program diet gue nih.

Malam :
Jelaaas gue ga makan.biarpun aturannya ga boleh makan diatas jam 08:00,tapi dari jam 06:00 keatas,ga ada tuh yang namanya makan buat gue.kecuali buah atau yogurt.

Nah ngomogngin yogurt itu juga jadi cemilan baru gue.Karena yogurt bisa ngebantu memperlancar proses pencernaan (bahasanyaa).pokonya gue udah nerapin kedisiplinan untuk ga konsumsi coklat sementara ini !

Diet yang benar harus dibarengi juga dengan olah raga.Tapi dasar gue emang pemales,jarang gerak,paling olahraga cuma lari-lari kecil aja bentaran (kalo kaya gitu gimana mau ngebakar kalorinya ya ! bodooh).Atoga sit up sama main hola hoop yang bisa bikin perut dan pinggang ngecilan.ihiiy.

Pokonya tiap hari setiap gue ngeliat makanan enak depan mata,selalu bilang "inget nis lo gendut sekarang !",nah kaga jadi dah tuh gue makan.haha.
People around me juga nyebelin abis,pas gue masuk sekolah (setelah libur lebaran) mereka pada bilang."ih ganis gendutan","gemukan","lebih berisi".
Aaaaaa stooop ! gatau apa lu semua ngomong kaya gitu malah bikin gue gamau makan tauga.haha.bagsu siiih.biar ada dorongan untuk diet terus.masalahnya diet gue ini kurang sehat ya.tapi bodo amat ah,yg pnting berat badan back to normal (yg sbnrnynya ga normal) lagi.haha.
wish me luck ya ! :D

P.S : pokonya kalo udah berhasil ntar gue kasih tau lagi.ihiiy.

Is that real me ? oh hell-to-the-no !

Many people put up their childhood photos in facebook now.it makes me wanna do the same thing.then I opened my old album with a lot of my childhood photos.But I could'nt find a photo that kite for display in my fb album.not bcause 'little me' photo was raunchy.it bcause in all photos,my face looks weird :p with curly brokoly hair,white strange skin,'monyong' lips,and freaky face.haha.
It's a shame thing if i put that photos in my fb.my friend will moced and laughed at me,for sure.
so i decided to put my 'little me photo' in my own blog.at least,no one visit my blog.haha.

This is picture of me about five years ago.haha.look at my curly hair and my 'jenong' forehead.haha.shame ! at that time,i used to thin this is my best photo.haha.actually,there's more worse and ugly me photos.but i'm too shy to put it all.ihiiy.

Now.this is how do i look now :)

Do i changed a lot ? haha.my dad always said that everytime he look me.
well,i'm happy with my appearance and my face past,now,and whenever.
Thnks a lot god to gimme the perfect body and face without no defect :)

It's amazing to grow up.haha.everybody must change right ?
Hhh...dady's little girls was change.

I'm curious.how's my look like 20 years letter ya ? haha.

Photo taken by : Me :)

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In a beautiful day,i spend my time in some 'warnet' not too far from my grandy's house called 'warnet barokah'.believe or not-i'm talking about the truth.
storynya,gue sdang duduk manis menatap layar kompie yang kedap-kedip genit,mncoba baca fanfic sambil download lagu Miley Cyrus-party in the u.s.a-tapi setelah stu jam later on lagunya blum slesai kedownload juga,smntara fanfic yg gue baca udh sampai chapter 10 dan finally smpai kata 'the end'.then gue ngecek lagu yg tadi gue download dan suprisee,wktu gue liat masih 20%.

Ghejje : Bo-ini lemot amat ya ?
Mimi : Apaan ?
Ghejje : Inetnya.gilingan dong,gue drtitadi download lagu ini msih 20% aja.
Mimi : Lah kan dritadi juga kata gue modemnya mati.noh penjaganya lagi benerin lagi
Ghejje : Blo'on kenapa ga bilang ke gue ?
Mimi : Lah kan tadi udah-(ngeliat ekspresi mukanya gayakin)
Ghejje : Tadi ? tadi kapan coba-kapan ? emang lu ngasih tau gue ?
Mimi : (mikir dulu-bikin gue pingin gunduluin palanya) kayanya gue udah bilang deh(FYI-kbiasannya amnesia mndadak)
Ghejje : Iiih.julung-julung dasar lu !
Mas mas warnet : Mi udah bisa noh.
Mimi : Oh udah ye.mkasih bangsat
Ghejje : Mince !
Mimi : Kenapa ? namanya bang satrio lagi
Ghejje : Oh (terpisu malu) buka facebook aah (two minutes later) min min ko gue gbsa log in ?
Mimi : Udah sign in belum ?
Ghejje : iiih julung ! ya kalo gue punya facebook brarti sbelumnya gue udh sign in atuh
Mimi : Yaudah gampang-tinggal log in nih di kotak yang ini (sotau)
Ghejje : Sumpah ya ini anak pengen gue tendang ih.mslhnya gue gbsa log in drtdi
Mimi : Passwordnya salah mungkin
Ghejje : (rewrite password) gabisa tetep-password fb gue apa ya ? (karna mimi tau semuanya)
Mimi : (dengan suara cempreng) buburkacangijo !
Ghejje : itu password twitter gue
Mimi : silverqueenmaknyos1 ?
Ghejje : Yang itu password blog gue
Mimi : Oh gue tau ! sateayamtujuhtusukgapakekecap
Ghejje : Yahoo deh itu kayanya
Mimi : Yang mana atuh
Ghejje : ih beneran deh gue lupa.gue kalo buka FB dirumah mulu soalnya.gprnh gue log out
Mimi : oh mungkin yang rendang-rendang itu !
Ghejje : ooh yang rendangpadangselerobundo ya ?
Mimi : Ho-oh ho-oh
Ghejje : (coba log in pakai password itu) bisa min bisa min !
Mimi : Gueee (berasa paling pinter sejagad raya)
Mas cungkring client meja 8 : password twitternya buburkacangijo ya ? boleh minta e-mailnya ?
Ghejje : (diem sbntar.mncoba mengartikan mksud si mas cungkring) iiiihh mimi kita bego bgt !
Mimi : Demi keamanan dan kenyamanan kita bersama kita ganti semua password lu !
Ghejje : Iya yu yu !

Dan akhirnya since that insident,all my social networking password,blog,mail,dan smuamuanya diganti ! janji ga akan mau lagi ngenet di warnet yg bener-bener bawa 'barokah itu'.dan sisa waktu ngenet itu,bukannya dipake buat browshing,malah mikirin password.
hmm any suggestion for my new password ? dengdengbaladocabenyapedesbangettapimantap maybe ? one that i learn from this incident 'never let anyone including ur bffffff ur social networking password.

Earthquake 02 09 2009.The Fear.

This happened a few hours ago.i'm doing my new hobby.tidur siang 3 jam setelah pulang sekolah.haha.
awalnya gue lagi baca beberapa bab terakhir 'Breaking Dawn'.mengingat di bab terahir itu keluarga volturi muncul (spoiler : i'm team volturi now ! 100%.haha).and i overslept,as usual :p
I was dreaming cole sprouse kiss me (hehe), when suddenly I felt something shaking my bed.
suddenly my eyes widened 0_0
then I realized that something was shaking is an earthquake.I quickly ran out of the room and called my grandparents.
perhaps 15 or 20 second,i felt the house shake.me and my grandparents 'goyang dombret'.hhe.
I immediately sent a short message to my parents nun jauh disanaaa :'( hiiks.
a few minutes later my mother call me,asked how the situation here.
and you know what ? she should asked 'are u ok dear ?'.but she didn't.
dia malah nanya 'is figura in living room broken or something ?'.
what ?

then I get the information, that the epicenter is located in Tasikmalaya,with strength 7.3 scale richter .
wooow.what a big eartquake !
I realize that this kind of warning from God to all mankind.
I fear to think about the end of the world.now,i just wannabe a better person than before.and prayed and asked God to always save us.
thank god for the life that you give today.thanks for the breath that you lend me until this day.
thankyou for everything :)

Re-post : Things From The Past

Do you guys still remember about the guy who I often talk in my old blog ?

he was not be named.hehe.and in this blog i don't expect you to say his name,don't u ever try ! haha :p
oke.i wake up in early morning and remind about him. something that I should not to do.
also i remind a box containing many things from the past.every bad memories that i ever have,always leaving something that i confused to 'should i remind or not'.

but,i just want to show you many things that always make me remind about that 'someone'.

Ok.this is what i call : things from the past
Presenting : cinema tickets.oh i forgot how many times
we got to watched cinema together.

16th Birthday Gifts.look at his handwriting.hehe.funny right ? my question is :
can u read it ? buahahaha.eh sorry yaaa.just kidding :p
however,i like the purse(it's brown u know !).thxs for gimme that.
but i don't wanna use it again,anymore,never ! but i'll keep that as long as i can :)

Oke.this is not from him.this is me.made by me ! huahaha.
i always laugh everytime i saw this suck crazy stupid things.
first time when we broke,i want to burn all of this.then i remember
how tired to make all of that :p
stupid work i ever did,right ?


confused about my attitude over him ?
NO ! i'm not back with him again(it's a big no !).but i decided to be a good friends with him.
actually,we're better to be friends.
i know he can change to be a good man than ever.and as a good friend,i will help him.
i don't have any feeling about him anymore.is that good ? haha.
i just feel uncomfortable to be an enemy with him.
beside,it's not loss to have many friends kaan ?

I wish the best for him.
meanwhile,i'm still trying to find,eh enggak salah deng,to get HIM (not him 'him'.but him 'him'.get it ? hhe.i mean not him 'the ex' but him 'the crush') ! haha.
who's him ? ada deeeeh.want to knoooow ajah ! :p
the point is,i never expect hostile to all my ex.


Happy remind your memories all ! HAHAHA.

It's For Someone.A Guy Means YOU :)

When i failed again in love (with the same person).my heart says "is there no guy who genuinely love me or what ? is there something wrong with me ?".

I must admit, some guys who have destroyed my heart, made me a little depressed :(
I guess,i've done all the ways to make them happy.to make them comfortable standing next to me.
but it seems what i've done 'nothing' in their eyes :(
Im a toy for them.
Seems like not enough with all of this,now i've fallen in this solitude.
Then i intend to find somebody.Somebody who can make me happy again.
you know what ? i found him :)
haha.but actually,im not sure he has the same way too :(
Badly,he already knew that i like him (i guess).huaaaa.so embarrassed.
but i just wanna tell him that i love him,if i could,i want to say "im your secret admire.you're my secret crush.i'll be waiting until you be mine and i'll be yours".
Even i know,im not so lucky about love,i always get hurt.but i won't give in.i believe that outhere,there's someone who prepared for me.someone who has become my destiny.
and i know my choice was not wrong.cause i'll choose my own destiny.is in my hand now,everything clear in the end.i'll try to find my true love :)

LOVE YA'LL MUAACH :)

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No Food Means Easy,No Guy Means Crazy

Fasting means don't eat from sun up to sun down.it's mean no food,no drink,also traines our patience.Muslim fast to feel the suffering of the other people outside,who less fortunate.
Muslims also want to get the reward from the gods.Heaven is the main goal.
For me, fasting is not something which is difficult anymore :p I've trained since i was child.
So now,not a big problem for me to fast.There is something different in this fasting mounth.I'm not gonna visit my parents and sister this year,cause the situation is less possible for me to go :(
Really,i'm very lonely.I'm sad because there's no special person who accompany me.
as you know,approximately 2 months ago,i break up with my bf (and now u can call him my 'EX' boyfriend).I thought,i will fasting with someone special.haha (understand ?).Have no boyfriend means crazy ! haha.
Sometime,i feel jealous with my friends who has a bf :( they look very happy.
doesn't mean that I am not happy yaa.i just feel incomplete without boyfriend.HAHA.

OKE.enough ! I just need a little patience.i believe that sooner or later i will get a boyfriend who much better than the last one ! yeahs,i'll be waiting :)
now in this hollymounth,i also want to become a better person than before.

Happy fasting all,hope god give all the best to all of us :) make this fasting mounth full of blessing.

LOVE YA'LL ! MUACH

I'm Stress Out ! S.O.S

Aaaaaaaaaa !!
you know what,all that i want to do now is screaamiiing out louuud !
hell yaaaahs !
haha do you think im crazy ? no ! cause the truth is im stress out.
there's something diffrent in this hollymonth.i can't go visit my parents and sister.that's make me so sad.ooh i lost a lot of valuable time due to living far far away from them.aaaaa :'(
and i feel lazy to go school in monday.actually,it doesn't matter for me,but there's something make me reluctance to attend (i can't tell you what).but this isrelated to OSIS.haha :p
talk about osis,I don't have plans to continue next year.many things that make me don't want to participate in this organization.first,i have no permission from my parents.second,im tired.third,i realize that i lost a lot of time bcause this activity.fourth,I want to feel how free mean.
and the last o*tiiiiiit* is the main factor that makes me stress !! eeerrrgghhh.

HAPPY STESS ALL !! HAHA :p (lmao)